I met you when I was NOT looking for you and I lost you when I loved you the most. You decided to squeeze my heart when it hurt the most. The truth is, if you can love the wrong person that much, imagine how much you can love the right person.

Somewhere on the road I lost some of my innocence. I miss it. I had to keep myself strong to a level where I completely lost it. My life's been survival of the fittest the past years, but I did it. How did I handle the pressure? Honestly, I did my best to fake it but I hate it. 

I did all my own healing and I managed all of my feelings while I still was in it. Now it's completely silence. All the thoughts and feelings are completely gone. It's all emptied and it's time to free up space to let life happen. 

You can't control everything. Sometimes you just need to relax, have faith and hope things work out. Let go a little and just let life happen. I'm so over feeling scared and anxious over things I now understand I could never control. It's like being scared and tired at the same time. Its caring about everything and then caring about nothing. It's feeling everything at once and then all of a sudden feeling paralysingly numb. It's like drowning beneath the waves and you know you're the only one that will have to pull yourself back up.

I don't think people quite realise how much strength it takes to pull your own self out of a dark place mentally so if you have done that today or any other day, a new chapter has begun. Write your next story carefully and do not throw your previous experience, feelings and thoughts away. I promise you, they will help you navigate on your next journey. 

The wrong one will find you in peace and leave you in pieces. The right one will find you in pieces and lead you to peace...